I'm a story teller. It's my nature to care about the characters of a good story. I want to know how they're doing 10 years later. What happened to the people who were left behind? I fantasize about this with favorite movies. Over the last hard, snowy winter and while I was healing from a … Continue reading What happened after the end of the movie?
Wisdom
When I was younger, I couldn't wait to be a grown-up. I dreamt what I would do and see. Entertain as an actor and singer. Save people as a doctor. Minister to their souls as a Priestess. Some things I got to do over the years, but not the way I had expected. I focused … Continue reading Wisdom
Coming out of the dark
Hello, I'm Hilary and I am depressed. That's taken me a long time to admit to myself. It's not surprising really. I come from a family that has depression all over the place. I didn't want to be part of that crowd. Not that I thought I was better than that. I was in survival … Continue reading Coming out of the dark
Living Native in da U.P. 1
This coming weekend is Powwow weekend. I'm excited because this will be my first powwow as a rez resident. I live here now and don't have to worry about traveling home after my vacation. It's also my first powwow as a Tribal Veteran and beginning Elder at 59 years old. I was thinking about my … Continue reading Living Native in da U.P. 1
Ponderings 2
Is there a moment where you can recall first feeling like a grown-up? I'm watching Pluto TV and saw a commercial for the old Johnny Carson show. I remember my parents watching that show after I went to bed. I would hear my parents laugh and wish I could be in on the joke. When … Continue reading Ponderings 2
New literary source
https://www.dropbox.com/sh/qmlbf5ljbt6jbhx/AAC4qTlPu-CaC34sQU9J6R2xa/July%2013th%20Publications/Poetry/Remarkable_Poetry.pdf?dl=0 This is a new source I found on Facebook. They take all kinds of writing. FYI for my fellow writers out there!
Ponderings 1
We've had some family losses in the last few months. The first of us cousins, and the first of the aunts/uncles, 5 days apart. It was a serious blow to us. At M's funeral, I watched as the family reunited after years of being apart. We all live in the same small town within minutes … Continue reading Ponderings 1
What is a “Mom”?
Maternal feelings. Wanting to have kids and be a mom. Baby fever. Raising children. I didn't have any of those kinds of feelings in my teens or twenties, not even my thirties. I didn't like playing with dolls and pretending to be a mom. I wanted to go outside and climb a tree or ride … Continue reading What is a “Mom”?
Windows
A pane of glass separates me from the out there. I gaze and imagine what lies beyond. The cold keeps me inside, but my mind walks for miles in the storm.
Family
At 58 years old, I have finally started gathering those around me that I consider to be family. I have a family of my own of course; mom and my brother. He's married and so I have a sister-in-law that I adore and the most beautiful niece ever. I am blessed to have a wife … Continue reading Family
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